My life has been a constant battle between the heart and mind. I am what you call a typical Libran i.e indecisive af. The simplest of tasks can send me to a whirlwind of dilemmas. "Should I wash my hair today or tomorrow?", "Should I have tea or dinner?", "Hmmm... will this shirt match with the rest of the clothes I have in my closet?" You get th picture. It is a daunting task for me to decide between my two vital organs. There are times where I literally write up a list of pros and cons, in hopes of getting closer to a decision. Quite often, I find myself feeling envious of people who can make up their minds in the speed of light. Like how do y'all do thattttt?! Well, most times the answer would be to 'follow your heart'.
Okay
be honest, that was cliché af innit? But it got me thinking and I guess that is
where the problem lies. I am someone who uses her mind more than her heart. I
believe in practicality, I believe in planning and I believe in consequences.
It can’t be just me who gets off being prepared for what’s next, can it? I feel
calm and at ease knowing that I have prepared for the next day.
My
question is why can’t our hearts and mind be on the same page? I can’t vouch for
others, but I experience this a lot. If I go with my head, I am choosing logic.
I am going for what is right. However if I go with my heart, I am choosing
happiness. This is what I want and not need. For example: You fall for someone
who is loyal and sweet and all that you want in your partner. But if there is
no future with this person, would you want to continue the relationship you
have with him? You might be crazy Romeo-Juliet kinda in love with this guy and you’re
engulfed with euphoria when he’s around. Think about this once, till when is
this happiness going to last?
