Walking in to the new year feels positive. You know theres just something about beginnings that feels this way.
2018 was a pretty weird year for me. There were countless moments where I felt lost and confused. Sad even. The ratio of highs to lows in my life was anything close to proportional. It took me a while to actually realise that I deserve better. The older I grow, the more I don't understand what is right and what is wrong anymore. Multiple things that I felt were absolutely wrong do not seem as wrong. Its not always black or white, we are all different. I am definitely learning to be less judgmental and accept people and life as it is.
I want to be emotionally stronger this year on wards. Yes, emphasis on the word emotionally. To be able to deal with being all by myself, to not seek validation from anyone anymore, to just be enough for myself. I want to take life as it comes. I tried too hard to escape it all last year and I am tired of running away. I am going to focus on myself, most importantly on my career. I have always believed in 'Beauty with brains' and I know I am so much more than just a face. My hopes and dreams. I need to remember why I came here and keep my eyes on the prize.
I hope the worst is over and may this bring more clarity and the focus that I need in my life.
2019, please be kind. To all of us.
& from all of us, Welcome 2019!
