Far, far away from home.

So I am in Delhi now. Its been two weeks plus I've been here. Yea I got married to a wonderful indian guy, thats why I shifted here. Kidding. I came here for further studies, duh.

The first few days was hectic, like extremely hectic. We had to run helter skelter to search for an apartment, book classes, buy all th furniture and also squeeze in what little time we had for sightseeing. It is indeed different here. I miss th life I had back home. Th freedom I had, th friends I left, th parties I went to.

God, I really am far. Far, far away from home. 

'Love is blind' said a wise man.

And they said love is blind. Since years and years, I have been hearing this cliched phrase but what I never really understood was the blind part. I mean how can one be blind? When you fall for the other person, you fall for their good qualities, isn't it? You feel like you know th person well enough and that you'r ready.

But oh be warned, that is not true.

It starts to become more about th other person, not just about you. You go miles to make them happy and to always be there for them yet you keep quiet even when you hurt. This is when you slowly become blind to person in front of th mirror. Secondly, you can never know th other person well enough. Perceptions change. You start to discover things about them that you might not like. Deep down you realise there might have been hints all along but you just swept it under th carpet, with not just one eye but both eyes closed. Because at th end of th day, you want to have that person in your life despite th bad rather than not have them at all.
Now this is when you truly become blinded. By love.

Pain pain, go away. Never come another day.

The pain? Its constant, its not even waves. Non-stop and excruciating. I'll accept whatever comes my way. Karma wants to get even w me? Fine. But please, just make it quick. Like an injection shot maybe? Theres only how much pain a heart can take and I've lost myself trying to keep it in.

Long time.

Its been a long time since I last posted eh. Oh well blogspot, what to do? You know facebook beats you hands down innit?

I need th mood to blog and th inspiration. Hold on...

Its funny how absence makes th heart grow fonder and how distance makes hearts come closer.

Empty.

Lonely nights. Restless afternoons. Need distractions. Feels different. Dilemmas. Stressed out. Unhappy. Scared. Worried. Fake smiles. Do I? Should I?
Man I am messed up.

First ever shoot.

So yesterday was th much awaited shoot I did for Kuber Jewellers. Well to begin with, I never thought it would be so tiring! We started at 11 am and only end at 10 pm! Almost 12 hours. Geez, but yes I survived!

The first location of our shoot was at Hotel Shankar, Lazimpat. I am still very much in awe cuss that place was that amazing! Beautiful beautiful choice. But oh th sun! The scorching heat. It was so difficult to not squint my eyes while posing. When I tried to open my eyes, th tears kept coming. Difficult indeed but I think we did get a good shot out the hundreds of pictures?

Around 3pm, we wrapped and moved on to location 2 that was (surprise, surprise) Bhaktapur, all th way at th other end of town. The shoot carried on. 3 models with each having 3/4 dress changes. Hunger and exhaustion took over, but we kept going. I honestly think I didn't do that well but I tried. I tried to look like I was the most beautiful girl even though deep down I was as nervous as a child on his first day of school. Imagine th irony and th act I had to put up with! My eyes looked so droopy and lifeless, my smile? Pure Barbie. (as in fake) I will never understand why and how. Guess I am not made to be photographed? Le sad. But Im just hoping and crossing my fingers that th photos come out well. Can't wait!

And oh heres a sneak peak of my make up done by none other that Sakil Kunwar! Haha! Look at me. God, never did I imagine I could look like that! :/

Anyway, good weekend everybody!