My Someone.

Someone who will be there for you always,

someone who is a good listener as well as a good adviser,

someone who wont get tired of you daily (boring) stories,

someone who will adore you regardless of any flaws,

someone whom you can trust w your eyes closed,

someone who wont mind going an extra mile for you,

someone who doesn't come to you only during their bad times,

someone who feels like family,

someone whom you can totally goof around,

someone who you know will stick around till your grandparent days.

THE MOST AMAZING FRIEND EVER.

Sounds nice doesnt it? I wish I met someone like th someone above. That would be just... awesome. Oh cmon', I aint referring to a boyfriend/lover kinda thing ok?! I wish I would come across sucha FRIEND. It would be so fun to just chill out at each other's cribs, having heart to heart conversations, just cherishing the moment. Believe me, at one point of time in my life, I was convinced I had found my lifetime friend. I thought nothing, NOTHING would tear us apart. We used to be very close but somewhere along th road Distance The Enemy became our new friend. There's no bad terms on my end, I still miss our times and memories will always remain.

Me my mom and my sister always say I suck at choosing good friends. I dno why. I think its cuss I open up too quickly and I am always joking around (jiskine-ing)? When meeting new people, I often joke around and make polite convos so that it lightens the atmosphere and to make em' comfortable. This could make me appear as friendly?  When friends, heck even strangers for some reason share their problems w me, I tend to listen and give opinions. I soften up. On this note, friendship starts. Sharing problems/secrets/bla bla. We become closer. Then true colours slowly start to reveal. Then our bond slowly fades and before we know it, we'r back to square one- Strangers. Long story cut short.

From strangers to friends, awesome. But from friends to strangers, oh-god-waiiiiiiiiiiii???. It sucks and it hurts. I hate being in such situations. Cuss when you start to care for someone, you expect th same. When that doesnt happen, it doesnt feel good. We get resentful, upset, hurt which sums up to anything but good. I alws told myself I wont fuggin' bother any more, but only found myself more upset. Sigh. This is an on going cycle. One moment, I dont bother. The next, I am like 'i wish it was the same.'

Yes I am indeed sensitive when it comes to friends/family. I get hurt yet touched by smallest deeds one does for me. Life has taught me tho, Friends come and.. go. F-ed up but fact. Theres no point wallowing over some friend who used to be so close now no where near. But rather to embrace each bond that comes your way. Just to live th moment, to enjoy his/her company, make memories! Innit? I have many friends in Singapore, sure I would like to meet up and catch up with them but theres no point crying over how we used to be so tight. Get what I mean?

On a happier note, the someone in the first paragraph. I do have someone close ( shes family so not really counted as friend okay! ) My sister!!!! My all-time, life-time, 24/7 bestfriend. Thank god and mommy baba for giving me my sister. No WAIT, she should be the one thanking cuss I came after her! Haha. Even she said 'oi moti, mai ho k tero life-time bestfriend' (oi fatty, aiyahh.. i am ur life-time best friend lah.) Thanks ah jie. You ze bestttttttt~

P/s: I hope ya'll find that someone ok! Feel free to share your stories.