Angry rant.

One emotion that I really dislike is being angry. It brings out th worst in people. You've heard of the saying 'I was blinded by rage'. I think that is fuckinggg bull. How is that even possible? Not in my books.

See the thing is, I am someone who doesn’t really get angry, at most I might get annoyed or hangry* but that is about it. I am a Libra and I have read too many times that Librans are the least sign to get angry, unless you fucking screw up. I guess it is true in my case. The first thing I do when I get angry is to shut down. If I am silent, yes that is probably a sign. Y’know why? Because it scares me I might blurt out something really hurtful during that rush of emotions. This is why I fucking hate it when someone says ‘Oh I am sorry, I didn’t mean that. I said it because I was angry.’ Wow, really? Fuck you. The damage has been done. It’s like if criminals said that, would it justify all th wrong things they did? As convenient as it may seem, just cuss you are mad it doesn’t give you any right to be mean. PERIOD. Why. don’t. people. get. that? It is really that simple.

Another reason why I don’t like getting angry is because, I cry when I am mad. My voice will start cracking up, I will start tearing up right away. And I hate crying in public. It’s like when there’s people in front of me, I can be crying a river inside but I’d still behave normally. There had been occasions where I cried my eyeballs out in my flat, but none of my flatmates ever found out. I’d rather suppress and kill myself a bit than to let anyone see me cry. Yes, that’s how I detest crying in public.

Yesterday I got legit pissed after the longesttttt time. Fuck, I even raised my voice. Something which I rarely do nor like doing. No, I am not guilty for being mad. My reasons were sufficiently valid. It just goes to show how being angry brings out this nasty side of you and it makes me sad. If I had it my way, I wish no one pissed me off nor would I make anyone angry. Random thought though, if no one got mad at one another, how would that be like? Could the past three world wars have been avoided? Or would my parents have not grounded me and let me go to that party I really wanted to go to see my crush when I was 16? Maybe, just maybe.

Thank you reading! :)

*Hangry - so hungry to the point the point you get angry.