Remember when I had said

What if one day we discover something in each other that we don't like at all? You told me that would never happen and I was thinking too much? I think today you spoke for yourself no?

Hah! I knew I had made a valid point then. Sigh :(

A big hearty welcome back.

He's coming home, He's coming home.

Im telling th world he's coming home.

Two days left and the man I adore most will return home. Finally my mommy and we can take rest. Did you guess who already?

My Dad. 

It's been months he was away due to work. And without my dad in the house, it feels really uneasy. Like there's no one to take care of us in terms of security. Every household needs a man in charge, isn't it? I bet my mommy is one very happy woman right now. She has been cleaning the house intensely since the last two days. It really is amusing shes that excited, cuss trust me- they never express affection. Most boring couple award.

I am particularly more delighted about his return as compared to other times. Firstly I am a very family person. I love my family to bits and as I grow older, I reminisce more and more about all the family outings we used to have back in Singapore. Deepavali, New Year, Christmas, Childrens day, etc- you name it. My favorite was during new years when mom and dad got us new bags, shoes, stationaries and books! Nerd much? We used to go out, do major shopping and eat fast food. Kids love it right? So did me and my siblings. We used to literally squeal in joy! So with him being back, we can be the awesome Kandangwa family again. A complete family.

This time he is coming for real, like forever, which means he can rest now. Poor dad, he's been working far too long for us. It breaks my heart seeing his wrinkled old face in skype. How long can be go on like this? Oh sheesh, if only I had a decent income!

His presence will definitely change things around here. Stricter rules According to him, we gotta wake up early, not hog th computer for hours, study, not go out as much and bla bla. In short, freedom? GONE. I might regret my excitement then but for now, I know he will keep us grounded especially my brother! Yes, we won't have to deal with his disobedience. Dad will do all th talking AND smacking. Muahaha Yes!!!! Like a baus babyyyyy.


Oh I think I am getting tooooo excited here. DAD just get here soon. Haha! And Macdonalds maybe? :P

:(

I don't feel so good right now. I feel angry. I feel neglected. I feel doubtful. I feel taken for granted. I am sad. I am sick of waiting. I wna turn back time. To th time where I didn't give a shit about anybody. When I didn't have to wonder why and when. A friend is asking me, w sincere concern if I am okay. But no, I can't open up to pple like I used to. Witnessed betrayal and betrayed too many times. I see what has happened to me now. Fuck it. I have been pulled to deep. Its a sign now, I have to fucken' withdraw for all these. From you.

Le sad. :((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

Madagascar- Movie Review.

Yes, I enjoyed my Saturday to the fullest yesterday! Thanks to.....

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Madagascar!!! And I went to catch it my dear dear friend, Rebecca. The movie? awh man! Firstly the animals are UNDENIABLY adorable. The theater was packed with all walks of life for these babies. Th only part that got me super pissed was when girls, started cheering and clapping like lunatics when th movie started, when th giraffe went alllll th way up above th water, when the alex and the tigress nearly kissed, bla bla bla. Dafug man. Can you believe it? They were girls. Women, females, ladies!!! Wai yu behave like monkeys one? Disappointed lah, aiyoh.

Moving on. What appalled me the most was th animation and graphics!! Any colour in the world, you name it. So colourful, full of neon night lights. It was so surreal. To be honest, a teeeeeny part of me felt like being part of a circus  act. Tsk tsk! As cliche as it is, we all love a happy ending. I was really happy after watching this movie. Totally worth every bit of my excitement and penny for this movie. My favourite part?

RATA TARARARA RATA AFRO CIRCUS AFRO CIRCUS

POLKA DOT POLKA DOT POLKADOT!!

Got me dancing in my seats babyyyy.

After the movie, window shopped to my hearts extent. Yes, a BIG difference when you go out with girlfriends instead of your boyfriend. I saw so many nice pieces in Civil mall! Plus it wasn't the not-worth-just-plain-expensive kind. I even bought a graphic-ish shirt! &I still have my eye on a piece or two more. Mentally playing mix and match for outfits I might wanna don to a few parties. Cash, money, dough' you hear me calling you right now eh? DROP BY FAST.

Ah yes, rebecca. It was great catching up w her. Had been a really long time I had last seen her. Lunched, shopped, plain chilling. Feels good to just hang out with a friend, no?


Well I did my weekends justice. Did you too? :)

Can you handle HOT-ness?

Im sure we all have a certain list of qualities we would like our partners/lovers to have. I have mine too. I wish for him to be someone whose a good listener, someone who is very very patient, someone who gives me space and etc. I don't need a handsome lad as long as we compliment each other. I don't him to take me to the fanciest 5star hotel restaurants. No sugar daddy's for me, nah uh~ Im fine with just an average chap, honestly.

There might be some people who look for the ideal one. Not that they are th only ones, some of us girls may secretly do too. But I would like to speak in the case of boys. Ramri pani hunu parne re, smart pani hunu parne re, good behaviour hunu parne re i.e. Beauty w brains AND well behaved. Lucky ones do get their prayers answered I guess. Blessed with a beautiful, smart, down-to-earth girl. Damn you, lucky aren't you?

Think again. You aren't the only one who wants an ideal girl. You aren't the only one who has eyes. Do you think there aren't others who wouldn't make her his girlfriend if it weren't for you? THINK AGAIN! Shes pretty. By pretty, Im talking Rosie Hunington + Beyonce + Audrey Hepburn godess kind of pretty mind you!! (okay slightly exaggerated) So obviously she will be popular. And cmon, you know your own kind better than any of us ladies. You know how boys can be. So while you'r w her, there will inevitably (yes, I am bolding that) be countless guys who'd be all over her. Ive seen guys do it too! Walking down th streets arm around their beloved, eyes on a hottie who just walked passed. Must be whistling in his head alr. Not so innocent yourself after all, innit?

It may cause insecurity, frustration and worst of all, the dreaded arguments. But is it her fault she's pretty? Every girl wants, tries and deserves to be. Don't blame her and guilt her for her beauty. I have come across quite a fair share of stories. Girls complaining or 'boasting' - 'Oh my boyfriend gets angry if i talk to other guys', 'Oh my baby doesnt like me in make up.' Oh my bf, my baby BLA BLA. Im like fxck you and your bf. Why care so much?? Why let him confine you? Why change for him??? Isn't it enough that she doesn't flirt back? Isn't it enough that she sees you and only you? Yes, it makes my haemoglobins boil! Whatever happened to trust, loyalty, giving space???

My main point is you gotta learn to live with it. After all, a gorgeous parter could just end up a blessing in disguise maybe? Be careful what you wish for. Jealousy and insecurity is evil. If you can't handle all that? Go date a nice, sweet, big hearted average chick. Its either you have it all OR not.

Lets face it, th world is cruel.

Virgin CA STUDENT.

How are you my dears?

So.. If you have been following my posts, I have been whining alot lately about how scared I am and all about  CA right? Guess what?

My first day was yesterday!

To start the day off, I woke up late. (facepalm*) Bad start. I was suppose to reach at 6.00am, imagine my shock when 5.20am on my Sony Xperia screen. Thank god, a friend of my had over night at my crib and she dropped me till my college on her scooty. Hell relieved I had reached on time, but so friggin' nervous to enter class! The premises of my Prime was swarming with students. Many seemed to already have friends or made friends. Few reflected the same anxiety shown in my face.

I entered class. It looked small and stuffy. My biggest concern? To get a good seat. One that wouldn't seem too enthusiastic yet not I-came-to-waste-my-parents-money kinda student. Bags were already placed as a sign to show others the seat was booked. Aha! I saw an empty bench. I had found my spot. Third row from the front, third row from the back. Middle indeed huh? One by one, a boy entered the class. My heart raced, WHERE WERE THE FRIGGIN GIRLS MAN! Seconds later, yes, I was 'rescued'. Phew~~

Classes began. Memories of my Alevel days in Malpi. You know that feeling? Wishing there was no class, wishing there was no homework, early dismissal?? Yes, you get me. The teachers seemed passionate about their subjects, I am really looking forward to learning well from em'. Hmmmm, my classmates? I felt so lonely. Everyone already seemed to form their clique, chattering away excitedly. I have my bench mate though! Seems like a sweet girl. She even brought sale roti for me today! Tell me, have you ever, ever, ever had someone bring you food right on the second day of school? Muahahah LIKE A BAUS!

Yes, the journey has started. This is just the beginning. I really really hope it all goes well.

AND PEOPLE, PLS STOP DISTRACTING ME W PARTY INVITES!!

Harehhhh kati parties ho yo June ma. 

Cheers everyone!

The End. My last day at work.

The Journey.

It started out as something to kill time, while I had to wait for my Alevel results to be out. A friend of mine introduced Radiant Technologies to me. I thought this job was going to be a walk in th park, cuss I was quite confident of my English language and conversing skills. I thought 'I could use some pocket money' and th best part? My work place would just be a walking distance from my house. Sweet!

Interview:
There were so many people in my batch! 40 plus people can you believe it?? This is the most number of pple that have turned up for hiring till now. I was nervous of course. The first part of the interview was to write an essay of the 12 words they had been provided to us. And damn! The words were super un-linkable. Eg. Seashell, engineer. puzzle, zigzag, episode, brother, etc. See what I mean? Even then I managed to write up one, didn't really have a choice. After one hour of writing, we had Group Discussion (GD). All the nervous forty something of us were divided into two groups and our topic was 'Love marriage OR Arranged marriage?' I belonged to the arranged marriage half. No one spoke. I wanted this job and for that I knew I had to stand out. So I stood up and said ' I come from a very traditional family. My parents firmly believe in arranged marriage. They know us inside out, which is why I trust them more than myself, to choose someone suitable to hand over the tittle as- My husband.' Something along that line. It then sparked a fierce debate amongst the two opposites. While that was taking place, it became clear to me who were threats and who wasn't. To be honest, out of the forty, there seemed to many who had potential. Hmmm.. would I get in? OH YES I DID BABY!!! My name was announced first you know out the lucky 8 of us! #justsaying. And after that, there was still one more interview with the manager. Oh my godness~ Sucha lengthy process.

In between:
After that began an intense week of training. I learnt things I never knew. Websites, CMS, SEO, Static, Dynamic, E commerce, Catalog, Online reservation, Pitching, Callbacks, Pop ups, Disposal ETC. Took th test and all eight of us passed. We officially began taking calls in the sales floor on 18th July 2011. Boy it was hell scary! As ironic as it seems, what could be so scary in a phone call right? There's a fear of rejection. What if they don't listen to you, hang up and worst of all - gush out a whole lot of profanities? How to make sales like this??? I couldn't take a day of it. I was ready to not attend work the next day. But then I thought of th effort I had to make in the interview/training process. I thought 'Oh heck, one month is all I am going to do.' One became two. Two became three. Three became four and so on, till its almost a year now! For 5months I worked as a Trainee Sales Executive then I got promoted as a Fulfillment Specialist in Jan 2012. Yes I guess that is the highlight of my 'career' here in Radiant.

The Downs:
Countless times I wanted to give up. To resign. To leave this fuggin job and go back to my couch potato life. The pressures of this job was just getting to me. Everyone was making sales while I couldn't. I used to feel unbearably ashamed. Even seniors were puzzled and couldn't seem to find a fault I could work on. My friends resigned one by one, I felt lonely. The first time, they didn't let me go cuss we were low on employees. I swear I hated them at this point. Other times, by then I already had a soft spot for my team. I couldn't leave at a crucial stage so I stayed, for my team. In FS, I wasn't as good either. I felt like this job was not made for me. Other frustrations included working hours. It was extremely long. Days we made sale it was all good. On bad days, we had to stay for 1-2 hours extra! This was the manager's saying. It felt like we were being treated as kids and that was our punishment for not making sales. Salary was another main cause of discontent. It was never hardly distributed on time. It got not just me, but many of us to be devastated.

Th Ups:
The working environment here was such an amicable one. You meet tonnes of new people! This place has got me uncountable Dais (big brothers). Almost a year, it was inevitable I grew fond of my colleagues. We shared such joy when either of us performed and the misery when we were so desperate for sales/revenue. Many moments we had fun too! Radiant's 2nd anniversary at Cube, Cricket and soccer matches, Nisha mam's wedding. When I had participated in Miss Mongol 2012, everyone were extremely supportive!!! I never mentioned this, but I was overwhelmed by the support I had received. Cmon I thought no one would bother! All of us bonded, we really did. On happy days, Radiant truly felt like family. Even tho I alws longed for an extra day of rest, I used to feel extremely restless on that 'extra day'. Being here I have learnt how to deal w pressure, how to behave around authority, the importance of money. My conversing skills had developed too! Now, I know how an office works. Managers, HR, Admin, Team leaders, employees. Yes I know the hierarchy now.


Resignation:
I had great difficulty in breaking the news to my team leader. How was I suppose to tell him!! After a few days of procrastinating, I told him as casually as I possibly could. He refused initially but deep down, i knew he'd be supportive. Like he has always been since the first day. Cuss he knows I have to pursue my studies and the gravity of it. So I wrote the resignation letter stating I had to leave due to my academics. It felt weird this time cuss this time was final. This time, it was real. My heart felt heavy cuss it meant an end. An end to another amazing journey. I am everso grateful to Radiant for keeping me here and giving me the opportunities to grow. Not forgetting all the amazing people who took great care of me. With such committed people in the company, I am positive Radiant will flourish and prosper. I will miss this place so much and if we bump in the roads next time, please say Hi! Everyone, I bid farewell now. Have an everlasting journey in Radiant!!! Take care!

Love,
Numa (Sarah).