I never wna act in my life again.

Myannnn. So yesterday was one helluva frickin' exhausting day. I had to travel all the way to New Baneshwor for this shooting I had for a short movie. Hold up! I have no intrest in acting/ role play what-so-ever. I was doing this as a favour for a Dai (big brother) of mine.

I was in total awe during the shoot man. It felt like a mini movie making class for me cuss I did manage to learn new things. Geez man. There are a MILLION things to note during the movie making process.

1) Lighting.
A very crucial compoment. Every angle has to be taken care of. You CANNOT have one person so fair and the other like charcoal. You have to ensure the lighting in such a way that no shadow is captured while filming. IT TAKES AGES TO GET THE PERFECT LIGHTING!!!!!

2) Continuity.
If an object is placed in the centre of the table, it MUST remain thr thru out th entire filming. NO one moves it. Pictures are regularly taken so that in case its moved, you know where it ought to be placed.

3) Sound.
Gotta speak loudly. The moment you have unwanted noise (eg : other people talking, restuarant buzzing w loud music, vehicles zooming etc), it gets VERY difficult to get th clarity in the voice.

4) Clipboard.
Rmbr in our younger days, we used to say 'ACTION' and clap our hands. It used to be very fun and entertaining for us but this is NO JOKE in the real deal. Before every shot. there will be a person (Cinematographer) who will say 'Actor mood. Camera. Shot 23, Take 1. ACTION!!' and clap th clipboard. They do this so that when you'r editing th shot later, it is easy to refer back.

5) Shot angles.
Over th shoulder shot re, In shot re. The camera man had to keep moving here and there to get shots at a right angle.

6) NERVES!!!
Oh god.Fxxk nerves. I was so fxxking nervous!!!! I felt so stiff and unnatural. I couldn't be myself. It felt like the few pairs of eyes were just cutting me open. You know when you can just feel it in your bones that you did bad after an exam? Thats exactly how I felt the entire time. I dno why I just felt so uncomfortable/ awkward/ agitated. Verdict- I SUCK AT ACTING!!!!! I hated how I felt yesterday, I am never going to act in my life again. I am referring to ME and I mean NO offence to any crew members of ystd. I am just happy this was a new experience for me. Thanks dai.

So those are the major 6 elements? Dayum after yesterday, I feel like the behind th scenes people during movie making aren't given enuff credit man!! And yes, my respect for all the actors has escalated to new heights!! Its so difficult to act. The only thrill is to watch the movie, but you wouldn't wna see the hard work thats required behind all that. 'Movie hernu matra majja aucha, bananu lastai garo cha.'-


Salute to all th camera men, lighting people, cinematographer, producers, director, script writers, actors!!!!

Cheap thrills, same fun. (Heavy picture content)

Oh the thrill of simply looking at the latest and beautiful pieces. Oh th satisfaction you can get just by looking at them. Oh the thrill of, yes, online window shopping! I happened to be browsing the web and I landed on topshop.com. Geez, couldn't stop clicking page after page!

Here's some pieces which 1)I'd love to have, 2)could afford and 3)fit in em'.

awesome print and cutting.

Loved this back detail!

imgaine this w pink short. ahhhh~

Can you be my LBD pls? Sincerely Numa's closet. :)

Th X X detail at the side plus th colour!

Loved th colour.

nice. for clubbing.

loved th stud detail

Digged th colour!

thr's just sth about this. it looks so comfortable and summery!

colour palette seemd nice.

so cute. london map purse. Lost anyone?

unique shape eh!

prints, check! colour, check! size, check! What else?!

th petal-like flap! unique.

i wna go back to school after seeing this.

fun and perfect for summer time innit?

 DAYUM! Now I am feeling like this.

=.=

Can't help it ok!! I am just a normal girl. I crave for nice pretty clothes. I think I will never get enough of it. I wish money would drop from the sky. I need my dose of shopping spree every now and then. And yes boys, shopping is very therapeutic for us ladies! Oh Numzzy, what have you landed yourself into?

Formspring away!

Morning people! :) Yes I am bored, very bored. Now how to kill boredom? Hmmmmm... (*Insert light bulb plus ting* sound) FORMSPRING! For those who aren't aware, formspring is a social networking site that allows you to ask anyone questions anynomously or revealing your name or be asked questions. Formspring has questions of the day and its own set of questions for those who want more OR for those who wna end boredom like yours truly.

1) Do you go first or let others go first?

- Let others go first. Unless its eating or choosing stuffs. :P


2) Do you think roses or candy are a better way to apologize?

- Have yet to receive a rose as an apology. After that happens, I shall decide?


3) Is there a story behind your name?

-Yes. My mom wanted a Limbu name for me. Numa in the Limbu dialect means pretty /nice/ beautiful. Good going mom! :D

 
4) In what ways do you relax?

- Sleep like a log OR watch reality TV with loadsa snacking!

 
5) Who's the sexiest woman alive?

- Hmmm... Rosie huntington-whiteley, The girl from Transformers 3. SO HOT LAH! forget Megan fox. =.=


6) Would you rather date a lot of different people, or be in a committed relationship?

- Committed relationship fo' sure.

 
7) Do you consider yourself athletic?

 - YES! As plum as I am, I actually do enjoy sports alot!! I used to be soooo tanned in Singapore due to all the sport activities. Miss playing. :(

 

8) Do you think good communication or good chemistry is more important in a relationship?

- Good communication.

 

9) Would you rather plan a party or attend one?

-Plan for what! Got so many organisers. Just go and rock th party!

 

10) What do you like most about yourself?

- My hair!! And that I get along just fine even w new pple.

 

11) Are you good at accepting criticism?

-Yes. I am a strong believer that everyone has RIGHTS to their own opinion. But th line should be drawn if th person starts looking down.


 
12) Do you consider yourself a good dancer?

- Some what. hehe :P



13) If you could spend 15 minutes with any living person, who would it be?

- BEYONCE KNOWLES. I wna know so many things about her.

 

14) What characteristics do you value most in your friends?

- Friends that stay by you. Friends that dont come to you only when help is needed. Friends who dont ditch you for their fucking lovers. FRIENDS WHO WILL LAST!!!!!!

 

15) Are you more of a talker or more of a listener?

- Listener.



16) Do you enjoy meeting new people?

- Yea, more like I dont mind. :/

There you have it. Thanks formspring. I feel sliiiiiightly less sleepier now. :P

Unexpected events : Good or Bad?

Life doesn't always go according to plan, does it? Im dead positive most of us have had our plans ruined by e.g the weather, a friend backing out at the last minute or an unexpected event at at least one point of time in our lives. Sometimes when we least expect sth to happen, it does. The sad part? Theres nth we can do but to accept it. If only we had those damned crystals globes! However the question is... are unexpected events always bad? Or good?

Well, I have had my share of both sides actually. For example : Just recently I never expected to receive the Ms teenz connect tittle! Who knew eh? To be honest, I never saw myself as a suitable candidate for Ms Photogenic in th Miss Mongol pageant either. It was such a nice surprise! I was gleaming w immense joy and pride man. haha! Just yesterday I was definite that this customer wasn't gna pay but he did. Yay! During my one year anni, my boyfriend brought me a cake. Unforeseen? You betcha!! I actually cried cuss I was so touched. Umm, yea I sucha softie. :/

In opposition to those events above, there were some unpredictable events which didn't lead to such results. I had a friend. She was someone whom I was dead sure our bond would never weaken regardless of the distance btw us. (see Im using such strong words) But things fell apart. We parted ways. It left me w so much despair and agony. Just like that, during my Olevel exams I was expecting an A grade for my POA but to my disappointment, I only got a B. At that point of time, I literally saw all my hopes of being an accountant bid me farewell.

I read what I just typed and I am asking myself th same question I have put forward. Good or bad? I think its more along this- If the unexpected event is something positive, you tend to become twice as happy than compared to when you would've expected it. But if its something unfavorable, then you'll prolly end up 5 times as sad as when you expected it. Yes thats the ratio. Unfair, i agree. But I guess it aint thatttt bad? It's all about accepting life as it comes, w grace. Well... except for some cases who HAVE to go according to plan 24/7. Life prolly doesnt favour you. Haha!

Not good enough.

Many times I feel like I disappoint. I doubt myself but never you. Shouldn't you deserve way better? I think of the things I've done for you, only to realise you've done twice as much. You give more than you receive. This makes me question how you can be happy with that. Behind all your smiles, there lies a dark sensitive fragile soul. So fragile it scares me, that I'll break you. When I raise such thoughts, you have your way. Your way of assuring me within seconds, leaving me with immense content and security. I wonder how you can see past all my flaws. Your patience amazes me to such an extent. Is it just me or do you feel this too?

YB's VIDEO SHOOT.

So yesterday I went for the video shoot for YB's* GRIME. Like I had mentioned in the previous post, it was a relatively small and short shoot cuss th song itself is only like 1 min 30s plus. So.. yea. I think I will be in the vid only for a couple of seconds. Haha! Small role, Small part, Much nervy. All I had to do was walk along th road and Anil (Yama Buddha) would slow down on this bike beside me and rapping. I act like Im semi intrested/ semi ignorin' him. You get th picture right? Rather common in rap music videos.

Anyhoo, Dayum. I felt so nervous when I was getting nearer to the venue where I was supposed to meet Ian (Director). This is my first music video kinda thing so I was like damn worried I wouldn't be able to do well. I was worried I would be all nervous infront th cam and Anil. I was like what if they'r stuck up, what if we aren't in sync? I had to wear heels which I dont really like! Gees all these questions. THANKFULLY  I had my mom and sis to accompany me. They'r ALWS so supportive!! Helped me calm abit. :)

So we met and did th video as planned. If you saw me ystd arnd nakhipot, yup that was me heading for th shoot. Ian said I did well. Yay! Huge sigh of relief yao.  Phewwww~ Anil was also quite friendly! He raps real good. O.O I also met Junu di whose a sister of a real gd friend o' mine. So after a couple of takes,
IT WAS A RAP! It took maybe like only an hour? Almost wished for it to be longer! :(

All in all, I had so much fun! I hope they did too? Again a new experience for me and I manage to pull it off. Do watch out for the upcoming music video!!! I shall update it here once the editing has been done! Till then, Cheers!

*Yama Buddha is a rising rapper in Nepal.

Pictures after MV shooting :

Thanks all :)

Me, Anil (Yama Buddha), Ian (Director).

People behind the scene.
Pardon fr bad pic quality!

Teenz Connect!

Morning anyouameh-kay!

So ystd I went to this event TEENZ CONNECT by (duh) teenz. Its a magazine catered mainly to the youths here in Nepal. I participated to help a real close friend out since there weren't enuff girls for it. Friend in need, friend indeed right?  The main objective of this event was to get youths out of the virtual world. Fair enuff, I mean we honestly do tend to only confine ourselves to facebook. Innit?

Anyhoo, so... This is how th event worked. 15 boys and 15 girls. Each girl has 5mins with a boy. In short, its like Speed Dating. FYI, its th first time in Nepal!! Way to go Teenz. After meeting everyone, girls would have to rate boys (and vice versa) according to our connectivity level. 1 being th lowest and 5 being th highest. The girl and boy who gets th higest points would be MR and MS TEENZ CONNECT. Winners would get a 3000rs food vouchers and a fashion spread in their magazine. To be honest, I felt like I was in the Nepali verison of the reality show Splitsvilla man!!
I was nervous initially. I was wondering what if th guys are too rude, or if im too talkative or if thr'd be awkward silences!! So the first person came, he was ok. Quite nice. The cycle repeated. Boy after boy. (*Note : No flirtatious-ness on my end. Loyallover alert.) I just wanted to make sure they had a good laugh and I was friendly nuff to make em' feel comfortable, which I *hope* I succeeded in.

So after refreshments, back to the event. They announced the results. Guess what? I didn't win. :( Just kidding. I WONNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!! Wooooohoooooo!! I was like super happy man!!!!! Even tho th prize isn't that much, even tho this isnt the olympics. Anyone will be happy regardless of what they win right???? Be it a card game, be it a friendly soccer match, be it aN all you can eat contest. You can't help but be happy if you win right? Ok I think this is as clear as I can get people. So me and this guy, Nischhal Pradhan won. :) But th catch was we had to go tghr of which I had no friggin idea. =.=

Anyhoo, overall it was a new experience for me. And it was way funner than expected though I was very tired after conversing w each for so long. 5mins is long ok! when its w a stranger!

As for today, I have a smalllllll video shoot later in th afternoon. Even then I feel so nervous. :S God gimme the strength like you've always done! Thank you so much!

My my, what a wordy post. I ain't got pics to upload. No actually I do, But my laptop at home is currently not working. Yes I am blogging from work. He he he :P

PICTURES UPDATE : (courtesy of Teenz fb page)

The event begins! :) see th yellow one? ME!

Manika and Jigme! :)

Asmee and....?

Triple date! :P

Anup ko face!!! hahaha

Ya! Thi purple shirt guy Ashiq was the most bored. haha!

Our celeb appreance with our host! :)

Ms and Mr Teenz Connect! YAY! Grats nischhal :)

Winners :)

Me and Manika. Childhood buddies.

Looking pretty someone? :P

Yours truly. :)

Areh wah~ The best couple. Strongest chemistry.

Happy Mom's Day.

Its the time of the year again where all the lucky children are reminded of how blessed they are to have such a doting mother.

Yes I am also one of them. I have been blessed with the most amazing mom on earth. I love how she goes th extra mile to cook yummy dinner for us. Each sibling has their own days! I love how she surprises us w treats but demands a peck on the cheek on return. Wtf I know. haha! I love how she is alwayssssss there to lend me her fashion advice cuss she wants me to look pretty in every party I go. I love how she buys new cloths knowing that Im going to make it mine eventually. SHES VAIN OK!! Thank god our tastes match. If not I would be sucha a poor dresser. And most importantly I LOVE HOW SHE GAVE ME MY SISTER!!!!

Me, My mom, My sister.
The most important women in my life. :')

VAIN RIGHT?? she did everything herself.
Sari, accessories, jewellery etc. I told you!

My mom has raised us impeccably. She taught me how a nice dinner can put a smile on anyone's faces. She taught me that silence is sometimes the best solution. She taught me the importance of family. As cliche as it maybe, she has raised me to be a good daughter. :') She has brought me up, watched me grow. But so have I. She had rough times but with concealing every ounce of pain in her smiles. There were times when she got furious w us but the next day it was the same loving we had received since day one.

Like every family, we have our ups and downs BUT blood is always thicker than water. I will always be ever so grateful for the family I have. Mom, your my sister, my fashion adviser, my confidant, my motivator. Though we'r never th mushy type, I love you Mommy. From the core of my soul. :")

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY MY FATTY MOMMY!!!!!!!!

Meet the KANDANGWAs! :*

FUGGGGGGGGGGG. I feel like crying!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I NEED A MAKE-OVER!!!

Believe it or not, I am sick of my hair. Tired of th same ol' hairstyle!! Do you know I haven't cut my hair in months (close to a year maybe)?! I can't even recall the last memory of when I had trimmed my hair man. My hair was NOT as nice till I was in Singapore. After I came Nepal, my hair grew longer. And I began to feel more comfortable w my hair and experimented with it. At first it was fun. I liked my hair so much I never wanted to cut it. But now its starting to get monotonous, BORING.

You know how celebs keep changing their styles/ hairdo? Its so exciting to see what they'll come up with next innit? Sigh.. I wish I was as 'adventurous'. No scratch that, I wish I was able to carry new styles easily. Every time I go to an outing or a party, I let my hair down. The only difference might be the fringe partition. The reason why I do this is 1) its very easy. no hassle 2) my hair is very thick to tie up or bun etc. 3) it makes me look thinner! Yes it really does. I dno but I just feel that it hides my fatness. haha.

Anyhoo so.. the main thing is I wna change my hair. Should I dye it? Should I cut bangs? Should I shave the sides? Should I chop off everything? WHAT SHOULD I DO!!!

 Heres a few hairstyles I found nice. :)

RiRi with the side shaved.

Carrie Underwood. Loved the two tone hair dye.

Pixie Lott. Cute yet chic.

I gotta good feelin'.

I feel light today. I feel good. I feel relaxed and happy. Cuss I charged today, I got my sal today. The atmosphere at work is very lively and happy. On days where there are charges, its like this. I wish everyday was like this! Also, tomorrow is Friday and I love weekends. My day offs what!

Anyway I have been thinking. You know, we as humans / people... Don't you think ALL of us should have atleast ONE good quality in each of us? I mean like imagine if everyone has their own one awesome-super-nice quality. Ok, A bit like super powers? Haha!

Imagine a boy who is atrocious at academics, regardless of how hardworking he is. People may call him stupid, bully him and blah blah. BUT! If has very good manners, they can't help but be nice to him as well innit? That will be a plus point for him and may get him ahead of his peers? Nice guys doesn't alws end up last! Another example would be if a person is very rowdy, always tending to get into fights and quarrels with people. There won't be any denying that this person would be a very annoying one. BUT! What if he is a filial son. Someone who always listens to parents and elderly and never once talked back to them! Isn't this quality better than nth?

Now think. Theres a girl. She dresses in very sexy clothing. Boys are alws all over her.  Shes the life of the party. BUT behind all that, shes th top student of her college/ institute. RESPECT man!! You gemme? After you find that out, its like a whole new level of respect lah! Oh believe me, it has happened to me. Smart girls? DEFINITELY A PLUS POINT! Or maybe if she hates cooking? She just abhors it. BUT if she is wealthy enough, and can afford to hire a cook for the family, Problem solved! Innit?

Okay, My examples above may not be th most accurate but you get the gist of it, donchu? I feel like regardless of HOW bad a person is, one should atleast have one AMAZING-SWEEP-US-OFF-OUR-FEET quality. Hey I don't mean alot okay. Just 1! How hard can that be? Okay scratch that. I have seen someone. Not good in studies, no manners, fxcking arrogant, not good in sports, not a loyal lover, always spending money away, not filial at all!!! Seriously, only a muhfuggin burden and a pain in the ass.

In conclusion, thats how I feel all should be 'manufactured' in such a way by.. the almighty above? Haha. Fret not. You may disagree, argue, dislike this view. By all means! Cuss each is entittled to their opinions anyway. :)

Cheers!

Bored of reading endless dairies.

Oh the boredom. The atmosphere in the office is immensely boring! Theres no charges to be made. I keep looking at the time. I keep dozing off while browsing the internet. I have hopped from diary (blog) to dairy but no.... I am still very bored and SLEEPY!!

Entertain me pls!!!!

An Empty Childhood.

I wonder how it feels to be away from your family during your entire childhood.
I wonder how it feels when you wait so eagerly for your parents during Parent Teacher Meet as that's the only time you'll ever see them when you'r in hostel, but they never show up.
I wonder how it feels when parents never came on time to pick me up while other children all had left for home.
I wonder how it feels when your mom and dad lives seperately.
I wonder how it feels when you can't even recall when was the last time your entire family was tghr.
I wonder how it feels when you are always compared to your elder sibling.
I wonder how it feels when parents are never satisfied with what you do.
I wonder how it feels to never have cut a birthday cake.
I wonder how it feels to consider a pet dog as family more than your own parents/siblings.
I wonder how it feels to be this underloved.
I wonder how it feels to not have a memorable childhood.
I wonder if he will ever be able to get pass this past.
I wonder if he will get rid of such immense resentment.
I wonder if he will ever forgive his parents.

Wonder. Thats all I can do. Cuss I can't lie and say I understand. No. I don't. I do not know how it feels. I really pray for his happiness. I hope god, you bless him w a wonderful wife and children. A family that he can correct the mistakes of his past.

God give him the strength. The strength to remove all his scars, from the heart.

:"(

Happy New year 2069!!!

Happy New Year 2069 to all Nepalese around the globe!
May Nepal progress and attain peace. :)

So how did y'all celebrate the new year? Well I went out for dinner and headed to partying. (with sis and couple of friends) Dinner at thamel. Geezs, during times like these. Can you just imagine the crowd in Thamel? Youngsters flood the streets, loud music booming from every corner, restuarants packed w people! After dinner, we headed to OMGevents party at UWTC. The entire building was turned to a club. Have to say the lightings was indeed a very clever idea! The crowd wasn't as much as I expected it to be tho. :/ Music was just ok. I didn't mind staying there and dancing, but my sis/ susan/suhas were just swaying like friggin' pendulom bobs man!! >:@ Laughing while I was trying th hype them up. WTF.

So we decided to head to Mecanopsis instead. So here the crowd was much better! So many familiar faces. Yes, I prefer this type of crowd. :) Music sucked tho. No I mean like trance/techno is fun at first but after some time, you realise it the same friggin thing. =.= Boring lah walau!! So anyway we stayed till the countdown, wished one another and headed home. Dayummmm. I was so tired by then man! Feet aching like hell. I am so not a heel person.

Anyhoo, at the end of th day, I had fun. It was great night. {despite being so fugging broke :'( }
Hope ALL had fun!
Wish I had pictures to upload here. I shall, soon!

PICS UPDATE :

Thats ME! And my dress for the night. :)